when he falls, he falls hard, aher to get bak up, jt throws his head bak and ughs he’s still ughihat harry gets bak, beae even though he had hurt hiself evehe fall, part of hi t have dohis as so sik for of pu, beae he had known fro the begng that this was the only possible result
“jes” harry swears ofte now, jt drops the bag of yarn and books a he had been holdg and sprts down the hallway to hi, skiddihree feet his soks “what the hell happened, drao?”
≈ good at beg soft, harry he’s ore wildfire tha, all hurria the gentle rafall when he’s beg draati and nholy, drao likes to tell hiself that it isn’t a bad way to go out, beg burned up by soone else’s love for you
“i wao o dow souupid whe out loud all bad deisions sound stupid whehe better part of the h on the ht i ould do it”
“did yhs, fdg it funny now that it was lear that drao had not hurt hiself, ao see drao for the first ti, aly, like it was ore of ahaion “rl, drao” he lets go of hi and drao has to lean onto the wall for support, hunhg on hiself io hide, beae he did he way that harry was starg “your hest”
“it’s nothg” drao rossed his ars over hiself, tryg to over as uh sk as he ould he k he looked like—had seen the bruises frhe irror, the sabs and the sraps as of sk that he bee awkward edges, how pale he was, the hollows underh his ribs, the sars rossg his ars and stoah and urlg over his shoulders—a if he had the hoie, harry would now that he takes a ont to thk about it, drao thks this is the first ti that harry had gotteo look at hi with enough light to really see, ahough harry had known (t have known), you ould not really prepare yourself fe like this when a huan beihey said it would heal”
≈ not disappear the potions will knit you bak together but the sars will still be there)
≈ are i don’t are)
(you do)
“drao” harry reahes out and phes drao’s hands away, gehat if he really wao, drao ould have kept the i he doesn’t, jt lets the drift off to his sides “god, drao”
harry’s breath hithes like he had been aught off guard by the sight all a, and drao loses his eyes, tippiast the wall as harry’s hands trae over his uts aorn up sk, beae he did not want to lo at hi, ’s like this “this,” harry says, a treble his voie, and his hands are folloeifi set of sars now, old o drao had spent so any h at that he ould all up the iage his d “these are fro ”
≈ be ryg drao doesn’t look, jt oves to ath at harry’shis hands pe, beae he k beg told that harry was thkgaway it’s what he always does, whehat he has hurt soone
“rl,” harry says agai’s all he an thk to say, and he is so lose that drao ahe word breathed out agast his shoulder harry’s ha aross his stoah now, fgersthe silver sars that are rissrossg over his hest, like he ould ake the lt away if he held on long enough, fi disappeariween drao’s ribs “look what i did to you”
“to be fair,” dra to sound hough this was the losest they had beeher si night at the hospital, “i was atively tryg to kill you”
“yeah, well” harry had oved oher sars, other stories ier endgs, his touh so hesitant that it was barely ore than a brhg of his sk agast drao’s “you weren’t very good at it”
“no” drao said, ahey see to o to the uandg that they have had enough of the past ahe future stead, or aybe it had oo harry at that ont reario positio whatever it arates the both the tehe ouh, athg drao before he ould stuble ag hi halfway, ovg down jt as dra up for hi
it’s ohgs have ald dowhat drao fally looks dowhe sk and the rui, all the ways that this life had left its ark on hi “there’s so aed to look at the part of his bak that was refleted the irror, f harry to ove with hi “i didhere were so any”
“i wish i ould take the away,” harry says, his hands still oviryg to ap out an iage of every ark his head
“they do look terrible” not terrible as ily, but terrible as they are speakg of a pa that drao would rather fet, of a past that he annot possibly hope to hen it is written aross his sk
“that’s not what i ant”
drao pulled the b bak over both of the, vanishg hiself and his sars fro view “i know”
chapter 33
harry
≈ a thg f draati proations
harry’s really o beae herione had poi to hi, one, bak ih year she hado be ohose tis where she says sothirospetive a it had been, beae suddenly harry was fdg hiself lookg bak on all t